Lez talk? Silence is killing. </3
48 minutes ago —5 notes
He who tells you he loves you but fails to show it. Girls, I’m telling you by now, you better not to entrust your heart into this kind of guy. He’s not worth it. Don’t fall into his words because I believe so, his words aren’t real and I think, he also is. Showing your love for someone isn’t hard. Though I’m quite sure that it will take every ounce of courage from your system just to show your affection to your beloved. It may not be easy but believe me, it isn’t that hard as what you think it is. When you’re in love, I truly believe it will affect your actions towards that someone and to what kind of treatment you’re providing will be define. If you’re truly in love, everything will come out naturally, including your actions. That’s how affection works. Just because he tells you he loves you doesn’t mean you’ll going to believe it. Boys who are sincere to their feelings are already outnumbered. Or yes, maybe they’re still numerous but some of them are misplaced, some of them are lousy and some of them are still on the pleasure of playing love and toying girl’s feelings so lucky for you if you found a real one. Guard yourself honey, don’t be blinded by their magical words instead, be meticulous to what they’re acting and portraying. If his actions isn’t synonymous to his words, forget him. Save your heart. It’s better for you to stay on the shore than to swim into the ocean of his fictitious words without knowing how. As always, actions speak louder than words.
He who acts that he loves you but fails to tell it. Girls, if you’re in this kind of situation, I’m telling you right now to eradicate all your fears and go pack up all your courage and ask him what is his thing about you or what is it you two have before you will lose your heart in that process. Yes, this may sound playing safe but I think you deserves to know the truth behind that actions of him. Let us don’t deny this, by the mere fact that the treatment he’s providing you exceeds from that lane of being in friend zone, that even others had noticed and seen that special string that connects to both of you, that what he is portraying towards you isn’t just an act like what a casual friend does, assumptions enters. Correct me if I’m wrong but that is how I see it. If you don’t want to be bothered by questions like what if’s and if only’s then ask him right away. Ask him but you have to ready yourself for his answer. For whatever it is, accept it, at least you do now know where you stand in his life, what your role is and up to where your limits are. At least you’re no longer be guessing why he’s doing this and that to you. At least there will be no one to blame if you’re slowly falling into him. Try to lower your expectations when it comes to this and don’t be afraid. Save your heart by asking him. You should know at least who you are in his life. As what the law of accounting asserted, never assume unless otherwise stated.
1 day ago —81 notes
"Tumblr?" he asked. I smiled at him and said, "Yes baby, that is where I met your father."
1 day ago —86 notes
2 days ago —42 notes
I get mad at myself sometimes because I tend to care too much.
Basically, I have my trust issues and I am fully aware of that. I set high and strong walls around me thinking by way of having it could actually help me save myself from any kind of pain people could bring, either unintentionally or not especially by the fact that people who knows how to take care of it are already outnumbered. It’s true that I’m snob and if that makes me indifferent to others then okay, I’m not going to deny it though. I choose my friends and I screen them. It’s my principle to collect precious people that I could display and keep for life than to have abrasive idiots that could only scrape me. Yes, you can hate me for being like that, I really wouldn’t care. We’re living and roaming in this world full of shitty people and by the fact that society is now fucked up, I guess you have to guard yourself by all means. If I have to push people away then I’ll surely do it. Trust is a big word for me. Trust isn’t just something like a coin wherein you will toss it in the air as quick as when people will tell you to do so. Trust is priceless. Trust is something you shouldn’t give to people, it is indeed something people should earn.
But once a person had earned my trust, expect me to be so attached to him. I tend to be dependent that sometimes the gap between the fact that this person had the gun on his bare hand that is pointing to me has the privilege to pull the trigger any time and believing that he won’t gets blurry. I hate it. I hate it because I tend to do my all just to not make him pull the trigger because when he does, I know it will surely hurt like hell. I’m afraid of that fact that’s why I opt to care, not little but too much to him. My world tends to revolve around him that sometimes, even so he is slowly bitching me, I will not still going to give a fuck because he’s special and important, I believe so he is. I will care for him, will kill my own pride if I have to and forget my own sake just to keep him even if he is already hurting me, even if he already pulled the trigger. I hate it. I really hate it. I can’t stop myself from giving them unlimited chances and let them hurt me all over again just because I love them so much. I really really hate it because as much as I want to be mad at them for not valuing me like how I value them, I just can’t do it. I dunno. Myself won’t allow me because myself won’t accept the fact that no matter how many people I get to know and have in my life, it is still me whom I can have in the end. That cold harsh truth sucks. It sucks big time. I hate it.
2 days ago —83 notes
YES OR NO QUESTION TAYO.
3 days ago —89 notes
Being alone doesn’t necessarily mean as a state of having no companion nor having no one to talk to or probably having no one to share some thoughts with. Sometimes, you can be alone in the middle of the crowd. It’s something you can consider as deprivation from people’s attention. Yes, you may have companion or you may be in the middle of the crowd, but when this people started to neglect you, or just some treatment like they can’t feel you or see you as if you’re a thin air invisible to the human eye, you will feel nothing but aloneness. It suck. And even if how much you would try to fight back the solitude feeling, still the reality would slap you real hard in the face that the people you’re with wouldn’t care at all whether you’ll feel deserted or appreciated along with their company.
4 days ago —63 notes
Kung effort lang din pag-uusapan, walang masama kung ibubuhos mo sarili mo sa paggawa nun para sa ibang tao. Minsan din di mo na napapansing nag-eeffort ka na pala para sa isang tao dahil sa totoo lang, ang effort, hindi yan isang responsibility eh, yung effort, kusang lumalabas yan, kusang nagagawa yan lalo na kung yung pinag-effort-tan mo, mahalaga sayo at mahal mo. Pero yung effort, may tamang taong pagbubuhusan yan eh. Hindi ito paghihipokrita o selfishness, oo nga, aware naman kaming mahal mo siya, ayaw mong mawala siya, pero kung todo effort ka sa kanya tapos binabaliwala lang niya? Aba hindi na tama yan. Siguro sa unang pagkakataong binaliwala ka niya eh matatanggap pa pero pangalawa, pangatlo o pang-apat na pagkakataon eh binabaliwala ka pa rin? Katangahan na yan, alam mo ba. Walang masama kung gusto mong mag-effort, ang masama nga lang kung yung pinagbuhusan mo ng effort eh lang paki sayo. Kaya minsan mas tamang magbuhos ka ng effort sa taong marunong umappreciate sayo. Kahit di na niya ireciprocate yung mga binibigay mo basta lang marunong siyang magpahalaga, sa tingin ko ayos na yun.
4 days ago —59 notes
Please take note that I’m hardheaded and stuck-up. Sometimes, I’m so hard to be dealt with. I tend to have mood swings all the time and I feel so bitch for being like that. So sorry, in advance. Despite of this physical attributes I possess, people always consider me as a tough girl, unbreakable and impervious. But honestly, I’m fragile, puny and defenseless as just like anybody else here and I’m transparent too to the point that even if it’s just a sigh, you’ll know whether I’m fine or not, you’ll notice whether I sighed just to breath out some carbon dioxide or I sighed just to exhale disappointments and insecurities. But you can only do that if only you have the eyes to look further than what I tend to show. I believe I’m one hell great pretender. If I’m acting weird, just let me know.
Please take note that I am capable of hurting you. Sometimes I blab so much nonsense without even noticing that my words turned into razor ones. I think it’s my talent to hurt someone I love even without noticing I did it. I’m clumsy, I know. But bear with me. Or maybe I will just hope you will. Sorry. I’m just so sorry because it’s something I can’t avoid especially when it comes to someone like you. The whole world knows how much effort I had put through just to stay away from it. Sometimes I opt for silence just to avoid saying harsh and razor-like words. And you know how much I will love you, hurting you isn’t just a good idea. So sorry. Just by now, I’m sorry. I just don’t want to lose you just because of my stupidity. If we have problems, help me fix it. Don’t just leave me hanging. Tell me what’s wrong and I swear to change it, myself or whatever, if I have to. Rainy or sunshine, just be with me. Stand by me. That’s all I ask.
4 days ago —57 notes
I’m not necessarily sad, I just feel empty, unwanted and alone.
5 days ago —58 notes
Pretending isn’t hard, actually. Pretending like you’re okay, pretending like you’re not in the verge of crying, and pretending like your current situation didn’t affect you at all — it’s as easy as reciting a b c. Expert or not, believe me, it’s just easy. Pretending isn’t a form of lying though. Pretending is just a form of escape you opt for just because it was all you think is the nicest thing to do. But you know what? Behind that pretentious face lies a heart that wishes for someone to see its real state. It’s just hard to accept that the people you thought knows you, your real you — from your best down to your worst state, has the courage to neglect you. They neglect you because they were too blind to see that you’re actually hurt. They didn’t even bother to check up on you because they were deceived by that fake smile of yours. Yes, you pretend because you don’t want to annoy those people around you with your problems but you actually pretend just to know which is which from people in your life has the eyes to see and has the sense to feel that you’re not actually okay.
5 days ago —87 notes
"Gusto ko lang mag good morning sa pinakamahalagang tao sa buhay ko ngayon. Good morning sa pinakamagandang nilalang na anon na nakilala ko sa buong buhay ko. Maganda ka pa sa umaga idol. Sana alam ng mga taong nasa paligid mo kung anong meron sila na wala kami dito. Sana alam nila kung anong mawawala sa kanila kapag hinayaan ka nilang umalis sa buhay nila. Sana alam nila kung gaano ka kalaking kawalan sa buhay nila. Oo bitch ka, maldita, childish, annoying lahat na.. pero hindi naman ibig sabihin nun eh dapat mong danasin ang masaktan lalo na sa mga taong pinapahalagahan mo ng sobra. Lahat naman ng tao eh may dark sides at kagaguhan sa katawan di ba? Wala naiinis lang ako isipin na may gumaganyan sayo. Mabuti kang tao eh. Hindi mo naman ikinasama kung ano mang imperfection mo diba? Parte yun ng pagiging ikaw. Kaya ganyan mo tignan ang sarili mo eh. Kasi kala mo kasalanan mo lagi kung bakit ka iniiwan ng mga taong pinahalagahan mo ng sobra. Siguro kaya ako andito para ipaalam sa iyo na hindi lahat ng taong pahahalagahan mo eh maghahanap ng dahilan para iwan ka. Mahalaga ka na saken mh…"
5 days ago —14 notes
Sa totoo lang, dati yung gusto kong relationship eh yung mga katulad nang sa movies at teleserye na napapanood ko tsaka sa mga pocketbook at love stories na nababasa ko. Dati talga yung ideal guy ko eh yung mga lalaking nababasa ko sa mga paborito kong libro, kung paano sila at kung ano sila dun, yun yung gusto ko dati. Oo kahit alam kong gawa lang sila ng isang tao, hindi ko pa rin maiwasang hindi mangarap ng kagaya nila, tipong nangangarap din akong maging isang prinsesa balang araw, o di kaya mala-api-apihan pero may isang prince charming din na magtatanggol kahit anu’t ano pa man. Ganun naman ata talga eh. Kadalasan sa atin, sa mga babae I mean, gusto ng perpektong lalaki, yun bang makalaglag panty dahil sa sobrang pogi o di kaya mala-adonis yung hubog ng katawan na tipong kahit exagg na sa sabihin pero wala kang pake kasi ang pakiramdam mo talga tulo laway mo pati uhog dahil sa katawan nila tapos yung tipong lalaki na halos lahat ng babae maiinggit dahil ikaw ang pinili’t minahal niya, tipong crush lang ng bayan kumbaga. Tapos minsan din yung attitude at personality nila na tipong pang prince charming yung dating, minsan ganun na ganun yung gusto nating lalaki diba? Ganun na ganun eh. Lalo na siguro kung itong lalaking ito, pinupush yung pantasya mong may happy ending bawat story. Basta ako, kapag makakatapos ako ng isang libro, ang tanging nafefeel ko niyan, depende na din sa ending siguro, eh gusto ko ulit mainlove, gusto ko ulit maramdaman yung mga paru-paro sa chan ko gaya nung naramdaman ko habang binabasa ito, gusto ko makatagpo ng lalaking ganire ganyan. Yung mga ganun.
Pero hindi, hindi ganun ang buhay. Namumuhay tayo sa realidad at hindi sa illusyon. Naniniwala naman akong ang pag-ibig ay maituturing na isang mahika pero hindi yun isang mahikang tulad ng nakikita natin sa tv at nababasa sa libro. Yung pag-ibig na nararamdaman natin, at yung lalaking mamahalin natin dito sa mundo, that itself is true. Kapag nakakatagpo ka ng lalaking magmamahal sayo pero takot ka lang magreciprocate ng feelings dahil lang sa hindi siya kagaya ng lalaking pinagpapantasyahan mo, you better stop it. Wag na wag mong ipipilit sarili mong paniwalain na may ganung lalaki gaya ng napapanood mo sa movies. Maybe a portion of that fictional guy eh tangi niya pero hindi talga mangyayare yung kabuuan ng lalaking yun ay matatagpuan mo sa kanya. Yung mga lalaki na makikilala natin dito sa mundong ibabaw, eh totoo pero hindi perpekto. Sila, may marami silang flaws, may bad side, kaya kailangan tanggapin natin yun dahil sila, alam ko kahit minsan balahura yung pag-uugali natin, pinipilit nilang tanggapin yan. Hindi pupwede na ipipilit mo sa kanila yung mga katangiang hindi naman nila tangi. Walang fairytale, walang fairygod mother, at lalong walang prince charming. Pero happy ending? Maniwala kang meron yun. Yung happy ending ay yung simula ng pag-usbong ng pagmamahalan ng dalawang tao. Yung happy ending ay yung pagsisimula ng relasyon niyo, committed man o hindi. Yung happy ending, yun yung katotohanan na willing kayong harapin yung mga pagsubok na dadatnan niyo ng magkasama. Ang happy ending para sa akin eh yung simula ninyong dalawa. Oo, malayo man sa katotohanan yung mga lalaking napapanood natin, alam ko, may lalaking magmamahal sa atin gaya ng pinapangarap natin. Kahit hindi perpekto, at least totoo.
5 days ago —76 notes
It’s because I’m half pissed off and half bored so here I was, trying to create a theme then tadaaa! This is my first public theme. You guys can use this if you want to, if ever. Hahaha. Anyway. I dunno how to describe a theme. Just view it here: ♥ and the code will be here ♥♥. Just check it. Tehee. It would be really really awesome if you’ll use it, though I know it’s lame. Hahaha.
5 days ago —19 notes
Don’t talk to me when I’m angry. Seriously.
6 days ago —47 notes